I have been convicted about something this week and I have felt led to write about it. I didn’t want to, but I try very hard to listen to any “heart tugs”, (after I fought it of course).
While doing some homework this week for my ladies Bible study(which I’m behind on), I was studying the death that Jesus went through. I was convicted that I just do not give enough respect to the pain and suffering He went through. Don’t get me wrong, I have always believed that He died and rose from the dead. But for some reason I always just glaze over the part about the pain He must have felt.
I felt like God was telling me to look closer at how His son died. He knows I believe it, but I don’t really think about how much He really suffered for me. I’m not saying that God wants me to be morbid and sad all the time, but just to be more thankful of the sacrifice; the actual ACT. I know some people think that IF He is God than He could have went to the cross and felt nothing. But that’s not how it was, He had to suffer to cover all our sins.
I think that sometimes in our spiritual walk that God’s Word can become so familiar to us, that we may get a little desensitized to it. And for me, that’s especially true since I have been raised in church all my life. God showed me I take for granted what Jesus did for me, at least the suffering part of it. I was talking to a friend about this subject and she compared it to the stuff we put up with in our world today, like stuff on tv and movies, etc. We just become familiar with it and sometimes we lose our passion over it. So maybe that’s a better way to put it, I didn’t have a passion for that part of the story anymore.
I know even in everyday life, I don’t want to hear any stories about suffering. I never watch the news, I just don’t want to be faced with sad stuff. But when it comes to what my Redeemer did for me-I needed to stop and meditate on just how big a gift I have been given.
I went back and read in Matthew, Mark, Luke and John-the parts that tell of Jesus’ arrest, questioning, abuse & mocking, and death. Jesus suffered for us, He bore shame and disgrace.
I know this is all stuff we hear every Easter Sunday, but again I have gotten desensitized to it. I don’t want this to come across as lack of faith, it is not. I believe everything in the Bible. I just need to watch what I take for granted.
This entry subject might not apply to you, and I hope it doesn’t. It’s quite shameful for me to come to grips with this-it’s such an important part of our faith. But maybe there are other things you have become desensitized to-whether it’s something in God’s Word or something in the world that we put up with and we have lost our passion about. I pray that you will be encouraged to search your heart for those things.
Love to all,
Average Jane
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